Quantum Change 🔮

It took me 29 years to write this poem. And another 2 to publish it.

Welcome to Love Stories. This is just the beginning.

Quantum Change

I loosened all my knots
and bound my body up in hope
all safely bundled tight
I threw my being in a boat
and rode the ocean waves
until my salty skins were soaked
I slept in certain faith 
that I could keep myself afloat

that stars were keeping watch 
that there is magic in those skies
that freedom’s only shown
once binding forces are untied

And seas stand wide and open
to brave people who have tried
to love
through fear and loss and pain
who've learned to watch their minds
(a light for those toes bold enough
to dip in changing tides)

I loosened all my knots
so I could feel for different paths
so I could swim through alien worlds
recalculate the maths

And dive into the blue, into the black
through depths unknown
reach subatomic levels
of my jellied, quantum bones

And Freed from wretched safety
Freed from that which plagues me
Remembering why I came here
I would find my way back 

home.

Self-portrait with Cat

Original artwork by me, Eleanor Flowers. Pastel on paper, 2022.

✨Line 23 references Lemn Sissay’s ‘What If?’

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